So life is still as busy as ever. I'm still learning how to balance this crazy thing I call a schedule. Here's the thing... I am incredibly busy every day and I know that I'm not being lazy, but am I really doing what I need to do here on earth in order to leave a legacy and lead my child in a real walk with the Lord? I don't know sometimes. I pray every single day that God would show me where I need to be in my life and what I need to be doing, whether it's sewing, just being a mommy, wife, and homemaker, going back to 'real' work, or something I haven't thought of. Every day God assures me that I am where I need to be right now, but am I making the most of what I am doing? I don't get to have a whole lot of interaction with customers as we all converse online only and I have multiple conversations a day with all different people. Am I supposed to be reaching out to every person I talk to? Am I supposed to go deeper into their lives? Will I ever have any impact on them? I don't know. I know that I am supposed be doing this for a reason and right now my reasoning is that I want to stay home with my baby and raise her to have a personal relationship with Jesus. But is there another aspect to it? Why sewing? Why not home data entry or in-home day care? I love to sew but I wonder if I'm missing the mark on why I'm really supposed be doing this.
Here is my typical week: (you really don't need to read the whole week, it's nothing super interesting)
Monday - Addy goes to her grandma's and I start the day by deep cleaning... mopping, dusting, disinfecting, etc... then I go straight to the sewing room to see how much I can do with the little one away. I usually get a lot done. I try to squeeze in a nap on Mondays too. Monday nights I have a girl's bible study at my friends house a block over and my husband feeds the baby and puts her to bed while I'm there.
Tuesday - Morning women's bible study, I get to carpool with my friends and all our babies in our neighborhood and Starbucks is the first stop! I really LOVE this bible study!! Then come home and put Addy down for a nap and I.... sew! When she wakes up we just play and read and stuff and I do some work on the computer.
Wednesday - Nothing special during the day and at night we have a neighborhood bible study group with all our friends and our home hosts child care.
Thursday - I usually bring Addy into my sewing room in a pack and play or let her crawl/walk around with toys (I have to pick EVERYTHING up off the ground, including - her favorite toy - the trash cans full of fabric scraps. She hangs out with me all day 'helping' me work. (Well I let her push the reverse button on the sewing machine whenever I need to reverse) :)
Friday - Catch up with whatever I didn't get done that week; laundry, cleaning, sewing, emails....
Saturday - Butch (my husband) usually plays with Addy while I get some work done then at night we go to church. We have a really big church and there are Saturday night and Sunday morning services so we go Saturday night with my in-laws and go to dinner after.
Sunday - Sew like crazy to get all of my Monday orders done! I also try to take a few hours to just relax and spend time with my family.
When I write it all down I feel like there is a lot missing. I didn't write when I read my bible or any specific activities that I do with my daughter or meals that I make or anything but even still, I feel like there is something else that should be there. There should be something in my week that stands out and says that I am doing good for this world and I'm making an impact on people and sharing God. But it's just not there.. and I don't even know where I could squeeze it in. So to my concern, I don't want to have to squeeze it in. I want that 'thing' I do to be my priority and everything else gets squeezed in.
When people ask me if it's hard to sew and run this business while having the interruptions of Adelaide and I always say that it's hard to take care of Addy while having the interruptions of sewing and running this business. I want that for my life story. I want to have an impact and a goal that puts God before all and everything else is secondary.
I know that God has a plan and He has me where He does for a reason. So if that reason is just to lead my children and love and support my husband then I will do just that. But if there is more... well then I'll just have to see what God has in store!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Thursday, September 8, 2011
She's Turning One!!
So we are getting ready for Addy's birthday party this weekend and I'm getting so excited! It has been the best, the hardest, the quickest, and the longest year of my life!
The best year because I never knew that there was a love that could exist like this. I thank God every day for entrusting me and my husband with this amazing, precious little girl. There is nothing in the world that I could ever do that could express my gratitude for her. She brings a smile to my face every day when I wake up and go into her room and am greeted by a high pitched "HI" and the biggest smile ever. When she says "mama" it melts my heart! And if it's an off day where she just might fall asleep in my arms (only happens once in a great while), well that is one of the very best feelings in the world!
It has been the hardest year of my life because I didn't realize the work that goes into raising and caring for a baby. I learn something new every day, and just when I think I've mastered something, a new challenge appears before I can blink. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.... well maybe I'd trade it temporarily for a nap :)
The time has flown by so fast!! This has definitely been, in some ways, the quickest flying year yet. I can distinctly remember the night that I took a pregnancy test and found out that I was pregnant. I remember the exact feeling I had, I remember what I was wearing, I remember looking at the test about 400 times in one night, and I remember thinking that it would be FOREVER before I would ever get to meet the little sprout growing inside of me. It seemed so surreal that I kept thinking that it was never really going to happen. I just couldn't picture it. I was ecstatic beyond belief but couldn't believe that if was real! I remember every bit of the 'all natural', full of pain, labor and delivery. I remember holding her all day long for about the first month because I knew she would be growing up so fast and I wanted to take in every moment I could with her. And I remember every time she learned something new, or developed a new skill I was thrilled and a little bit heart broken knowing that she would never be this way again. She was going to keep on learning new things and getting bigger and those days of sitting on the couch with her in my arms from the moment I woke up until my husband got home from work would be a distant memory.
At the same time, it has seemed like the longest year of my life because as I think of any memory from my past, the first thing that pops into my mind was 'where was Addy that night?' - oh yah, she didn't even exist yet! When I say something about my old routines like the gym, tanning, movie theater nights..etc. I always wonder where my daughter was that night. Once I realize that she wasn't a part of that time, I think to myself 'now I know what people meant when they would say to enjoy this time and to take lots of naps..!' You never understand that at the time, but I think that everyone with kids has that moment of "Oh! Now I know what they meant!"
I am so proud to be the mom of such an incredible little girl! Just last week at church we dropped of Adelaide in the nursery (where there are hundreds of kids) and the childcare girls in Addy's room all said that she is the baby that they all fight over. They have to take turns because they all want a chance to get to play with her. I know I am bias but it feels really good to hear that other people see the amazing love and personality that God has already instilled in her. I know that God has plans for her life and I pray that I am able to guide her down the right path for as long as I can.
I am proud to say that in 2 weeks I will be the mother of a one-year-old and could not be more thankful for this life!! I love my sweet Adelaide Brianne!!
The best year because I never knew that there was a love that could exist like this. I thank God every day for entrusting me and my husband with this amazing, precious little girl. There is nothing in the world that I could ever do that could express my gratitude for her. She brings a smile to my face every day when I wake up and go into her room and am greeted by a high pitched "HI" and the biggest smile ever. When she says "mama" it melts my heart! And if it's an off day where she just might fall asleep in my arms (only happens once in a great while), well that is one of the very best feelings in the world!
It has been the hardest year of my life because I didn't realize the work that goes into raising and caring for a baby. I learn something new every day, and just when I think I've mastered something, a new challenge appears before I can blink. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.... well maybe I'd trade it temporarily for a nap :)
The time has flown by so fast!! This has definitely been, in some ways, the quickest flying year yet. I can distinctly remember the night that I took a pregnancy test and found out that I was pregnant. I remember the exact feeling I had, I remember what I was wearing, I remember looking at the test about 400 times in one night, and I remember thinking that it would be FOREVER before I would ever get to meet the little sprout growing inside of me. It seemed so surreal that I kept thinking that it was never really going to happen. I just couldn't picture it. I was ecstatic beyond belief but couldn't believe that if was real! I remember every bit of the 'all natural', full of pain, labor and delivery. I remember holding her all day long for about the first month because I knew she would be growing up so fast and I wanted to take in every moment I could with her. And I remember every time she learned something new, or developed a new skill I was thrilled and a little bit heart broken knowing that she would never be this way again. She was going to keep on learning new things and getting bigger and those days of sitting on the couch with her in my arms from the moment I woke up until my husband got home from work would be a distant memory.
At the same time, it has seemed like the longest year of my life because as I think of any memory from my past, the first thing that pops into my mind was 'where was Addy that night?' - oh yah, she didn't even exist yet! When I say something about my old routines like the gym, tanning, movie theater nights..etc. I always wonder where my daughter was that night. Once I realize that she wasn't a part of that time, I think to myself 'now I know what people meant when they would say to enjoy this time and to take lots of naps..!' You never understand that at the time, but I think that everyone with kids has that moment of "Oh! Now I know what they meant!"
I am so proud to be the mom of such an incredible little girl! Just last week at church we dropped of Adelaide in the nursery (where there are hundreds of kids) and the childcare girls in Addy's room all said that she is the baby that they all fight over. They have to take turns because they all want a chance to get to play with her. I know I am bias but it feels really good to hear that other people see the amazing love and personality that God has already instilled in her. I know that God has plans for her life and I pray that I am able to guide her down the right path for as long as I can.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Great church service!
Last night our church service was about sharing the Word of God with neighbors, strangers, friends and family. I am basically going to copy straight off of my notes because I thought all of this was such good information.
85% of Americans would accept an invitation to a Christian even or worship, but only 2% of Christians ever invite others.
92% of U.S. adults say they believe in God
84% of U.S. adults describe themselves as Christians
48% of U.S. adults believe we can go to heaven by doing good works
Wow, if only we were all bold enough to just ask! It is hard sometimes to talk to a person about God when they have already been scarred by bad experiences, but there are so many people all around us that may have never had any relationship with God and are just waiting for someone to show them what they are missing. I don't have a lot of bible verses memorized but I have story after story of the amazing things that God has done in my life. He has directly answered my prayers in the most amazing ways!
I am going to try and be more bold this year and tell people about all of the things that God is doing in my life and share His love with those who don't have a personal relationship with God.
85% of Americans would accept an invitation to a Christian even or worship, but only 2% of Christians ever invite others.
92% of U.S. adults say they believe in God
84% of U.S. adults describe themselves as Christians
48% of U.S. adults believe we can go to heaven by doing good works
Wow, if only we were all bold enough to just ask! It is hard sometimes to talk to a person about God when they have already been scarred by bad experiences, but there are so many people all around us that may have never had any relationship with God and are just waiting for someone to show them what they are missing. I don't have a lot of bible verses memorized but I have story after story of the amazing things that God has done in my life. He has directly answered my prayers in the most amazing ways!
I am going to try and be more bold this year and tell people about all of the things that God is doing in my life and share His love with those who don't have a personal relationship with God.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Addy is 11 months!!
Monday, August 1, 2011
Monday Mixer - Charlott in Patches
Monday Mixer
One of A Kind
$50 + shipping (ruffle pants can be added for $21 or bloomers for $16)
This dress is a size 6-24mo
Best as 6-12mo dress and 18-24mo swing top
Measurements:
Length: from under arm to hem is 16"
Chest:16" - 25" (stretches with a soft stretch elastic shirred in the top.)
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